Ok, so before I head out to the great unknown (or rather, the great largely known- Grand Canyon), I thought I should fill you all in on my progress. I started the LOVE DARE one month ago. I would love to tell you that, that means I am 30 days into the dare…Rather, it means that I am 21 days in.
In many ways it really is quite cheesy, and this coming from someone who LOVES cheesy. Also, I find myself reading days thinking “Ummm, every day is already about everyone else: sacrifice- check, loving touches- check, greeting with a smile- check, going out of your way to serve- check”, so that is basically exhausting.
But now I’ve gotten to the more spiritual prayerful part of the book, and I quite like it. So as a pastoral staff member, I’m going to say something that may shock you….I really don’t pray for Matt every day. The kids, absolutely, but not Matt. Now, I pray for him often, but not every day. Sure there have been hard seasons in Matt’s life where I’ve prayed for him every day. But, mostly I pray about situations for him, not just that his heart and mind stay protected, not for our love, not for his relationship with Christ. Sad, really sad, but that is truth. So, this part is really, really healthy for me. And I’ve quite liked it. So that’s where I am.
Oh, and if I’m being honest. I still haven’t done the day where I am supposed to go out of my way to plan an activity/date doing something with Matt that he loves to do that I don’t normally do (or necessarily even want to do) with him. Why? Because I really don’t want to go golfing, shooting, or camping…I will, ok, I will. I just haven’t yet. I’ll tell you when I do.